Sleep and thought= wonderland...

Dear Reader,

Have you ever laid awake at night, waiting for sleep to set in and you think over the days past or even a distant memory of other past times? Have you ever thought about what mark you've left in this world or will leave some day?

Some might think of the awards they want to achieve at some point in their lives. Others might dream about road trips soon to be planned or just achieved. Some might dream of the perfect dress/suit to be bought. I wonder though how many people dream of the weight they might leave behind when they've left the earth for good. When their expiration date has finally been stamped and recalled.

I know that might be a heavy topic to think about at such a time in our worlds. But imagine, if you will your dream for what people will say about you when you're gone...
your children? your family-distant and close? Your in-laws? your neighbors? strangers who saw you during your daily to-do lists?

I lay awake tonight. On one of the biggest adventures of my life...and I am pondering what might be the legacy I want to leave behind...I am thinking about the life I have lived. People I love- no matter what pain they inflict-come to mind. Children I have learned from and taught. Laughs I have shared and tears I have shed. Good talks shared with many and heart aches felt to help others.

I lay here thinking as my beautiful husband lay sleeping. I wish I could follow his lead but my mind has taken me to far deeper paths tonight.

Oh, how the mind asks the questions and the person begs for sleep? I can't help but think to the future about the days when I am a mother, a college graduate, a teacher, and still Mrs. Buff. I dream of having a home that my husband and children can be themselves always, to know they are all loved, to sing often and always, to make a difference in my home with my kids-as well with the children I some day will teach and help. I dream of some day leaving this world with a smile and love for my love and kids.

I think I have settled on the answer for my above questions...It doesn't matter to me the mark I will leave behind but simply the mark I am leaving now. If I work now to be the person I want to be then someday I will be. It starts with desire than motivation then hard work then when the day is said and done and the time is well spent I will leave the mark I am intended to leave.



What would you do?

Sincerely,
~BabyDolly!